I LOVE.....

There are so many things that I love in this world...
The countless little pleasures that cannot be compensated for...
I love the bright green of little baby leaves
I love deep red roses...their smell...
I love the smell of puppies and dogs...
I love their tiny tongues and paws...
I love the feel of velvet and rose petals...
I love chocolate milk and the smell of fresh morning air...
I love the chirping of the birds, robins with red cheeks
and little yellow birds...
I love the feeling you get
when you eat vanilla ice cream after super spicy pani puri.
I love the wind on my face...
I love bike rides...
I love how i feel when i wake up in the morning after having a sweet dream
I love the chill of the morning air on my face,
The chillness of water in my mouth and throat after playing
I love the feeling you get when the ball released from your hand swishes into the ring...
I love the feeling you get when you jump in the air and intercept a pass...
I love the feeling of relief you get when you hand over your answer sheet to the examiner...
I love the warmth of hot chocolate, thick blanket and a good book on a cold winter morning...
I love the mushy feeling you get when youre watchin a romantic movie
and the hero finally kisses the woman of his dreams...
I love the feeling you get when the person youre thinking of suddenly calls...
I love when I wake up in the morning and feel beautiful...
I love the sound of bells ringing...
I love the feeling you get when you talk to a close friend after very very long....
I love reminiscing about my past...
I love playing with puppies...
I love the feeling you get when you have the right answer in class and the teacher asks you for it....
I love hot chocolatey brownies and vanilla icecream with extra chocolate sauce...
I love the way my heart races when the guy i like leans over recklessly close to me
and doesnt realise the effect he has on me...
I love the feeling i get when i sing a school hymn after ages!
I love hugs...the warm, full hugs...especially before an exam...
I love staring at the rain...
I love the smell of wet mud...
I love the warmth of the sun on an otherwise cold day...
I love the soft breeze on my face...
I love looking at the stars from my bed room window...
I love surprises...
I love the oestrogen rush I get when surrounded by peppy, chirpy, giggly, girls...
And the clickity sound of someone typing really really fast on the keyboard...
But...
Im afraid of loneliness...
Afraid to be left alone in the world...
Afraid of losing the ones i love...
So many things to love... so little to fear...
This world is a happy place whenever you're near :)

GOOD MORNING

Early in the morning the birds are singing;

Theres a song in my heart,

I'm feeling so happy today!

I'm light hearted i dont know why...

Its a good feeling, i hate to cry..

Today is going to be a great day...

I know its true...

Theres something in the air...

Something delightful, so very nice,

It makes me feel warm...

Makes me wanna jump for joy!

Its funny to feel this way you know...

Doesnt come everyday..

This joy..

But when it does..its a fantastic feeling...

So warm so light so bright...

Brings a glow to your face and your heart skips a beat..

On days like this you dont need good things to happen

 To make you feel better... 

You just know that theyll come no matter what...

Cause today youre so absolutely sure of your self....

So confident without the slightest of doubt...

Its nice to feel certain about something in life..

Sometimes...

Its a lovely feeling to be happy for no reason...

It feels like your in the air...

The kind of feeling you get when

You're swinging...

When youre swinging really high...

And you look up into the sky...

Makes you feel on top of the world...

Like you can touch the sky...

The way your heart leaps in that tiny moment ..

When youre at the highest position...

Just before you swing back..

The adrenalin rush that flows through you..

Or the anticipation you feel just as you are about to reach the highest limit...

Its an amazing feeling...

Its one of a kind...

It makes you feel like you can do anything...

Absolutely anything..

It reminds you of your childhood dreams...

The ones that the present makes you forget..

Todays complications can make you forget...

Those colourful beautiful bubbletastic dreams...

The carefree games...

It makes you break away...

Break away from the present...

Into a world of your own...

A world of  your dreams...

Where things go your way...

Sometimes when we think about these dreams...

Our conscience calls our expectations foolish

But we know in our heart that 

If we really want it ...

That if we really really want it...

We can get it...

It is such days of break away...

Such days of inexplainable joy...

That reminds us...reminds us that we need to go back..

Back to the beginning..

To know what we really want and do what makes us happy...

These good mornings are always looked forward to...

Whether we know it or not...

These good mornings make us happy...

They remind us people..lost in our busy world...

Who dont know what we want from life...

Reminds us our dreams and helps us chase them...

These are the good mornings ...

So beautiful so bright so light... 

So go ahead! 

Let yourself have a good morning...

Let yourself have a good day...

Give yourself that one chance...

Have a great time...

:)

being me

(i wish u were mine, wish u didnt have the power to break my tiny heart....
wish i could do something that would make you like me....
i really hate the girl who stole your heart...
i wish i could make you look that happy,
the happy you r when u see her.
i wish you could look at me like u look at her...)

baby, stop haunting me
stealing me dreams
stealing my time
when youre not gonna be mine
youre making me numb
stop breaking my heart
we were never togother to ever be apart

stop making me cry
stop telling me why
i dont want no reason to be me....
numb-skull! rattle brain!
it can never be the same..
cant you see...
now your far far away from me

i wish it could be the same
like before once more...
then i would have another chance
not to fall in love
so u would never ever ever
so could never ever ever
break my heart...
so you could not leave me so unfocused and numb
so you didnt have me be so dependetn on you....
so i could be me.....
just want to be me....

one thing for me

i wish you would notice...
im here...
waitin for the day you see...
tht im not just another...
im different in my own way...
im watin n hopin...
that one day youll see...
im not like everybody...
i miss your voice
your laugh
even when you dnt tell me y
but i promise i wont cry...
i miss our weird conversations
when i end tellin you everything i thought i wouldnt...
n not tellin everything i probably should...
i miss the way you wake me up
even if it has only happened a few times...
i miss your smile
and that look in your eyes...
but i promise i wont cry...
even when you go n break my heart
i know thats what your goin to do...
even if you find someone
someone you want to keep in your heart...
one place where i want to be...
even if i miss the way you say good bye...
i promise i wont cry...
if i promise you this then...
if my tears betray me
if my heart shatters into a million peices
if my emotions fail to stay within bounds
will you be there for me?
to hold me, console me,
say everythings alright...
to say come on gal! you're gonna be fine...
will you tell me a secret?
only to me?
something that i can keep?
to remember you n cherish
every word you said to me?
will you trust me with something
so that i can say...you trusted me
not anyone else but me?
if i promise to leave you alone forever...
not trouble you with guilt?
will you do one thing for me?
spend one moment
one single moment
for me
with me
only me....

the perfect day

im feeling kinda blue;
this feeling -its not new,
to me nowdays...
i feel on top of the world somtimes
but sometimes its just hard to say.
i hate to say good bye to you
but every day...i have to...
i miss you..
i think of you when im awake
dream of you when im asleep..
its like every thing i do...
has something to do with you..
im scared to look into your eyes..
afraid i wont find what im looking for
i know i wont find it there..
not today not tomorrow..
not ever...
thats what makes me sad sometimes...
but i know i have to go on..
"i dont think so much"...
you always say..
i guess its time for me to be that way...
you make me do the weirdest things
things i should do on my own..i do only coz you say so...
god!!u makin me go crazy...
i wonder if you know...
do u evr wonder how much every word you say affects me?
do you or will you ever know how much you mean to me?
i was doin well...
coz of you..
i swear n now....i dont think anthings changed
but im not doin anything coz you didnt say so..
i wonder why i feel this way...
feel like doin only what you say...
youre the best thing that ever happened to me...
may be not the version i wanted...
but your my personnel mp3;
(lol!)
you are every song i will ever need to hear..
you make me feel better...
you bring me cheer...
even now....remember i started sayin i was feelin blue..
now that im thinkin of you im way better...
you make me happy even when you arent here!
imagine what you do to me every day at school!!!
dude! you make me go crazy
you never think of me in the same way...
but i really dont care cause i as long as know you think of me...ill be okay
you make my day or break it by your presence..by every word you say...
hell i know i shouldnt think of you in this way
but as long as you dont know...who cares!
you run my life...control it..dominate it...
and you dont even know of your own kingdom!
i feel like laughin now....feel so free..
i wish you were here to feel it with me..
i dont just want you to bear my pain
but also share my joys...
i wish i could do the same but i know you dont need me..
but thats okay...
ill keep waitin for the day when youll set me free!
how much a person cares for you depends on how much they need you...
i dont need you to care for me the way i do fr you..
i just need you to need me..
in any way...even as a little sister...
when you need me...that will be the day...
the perfect day...
:)
:D

im sorry.....i was stupid....im very sorry....

i wish you never knew...

It hurts to have your feelings hurt...
to like and not be liked...
to cry yourself to sleep...
to be told that you are cared for...
but to be betrayed by curiosity...
for it was curiosity not care...
that drove you to me...
it was good enough for me...
that you liked me in someway...
if not the same as i do...
i was on top of the world everytime you smiled at me...
you are the most perfect person i have ever known...
i admire you...
everything about you...
the way you walk...
the way you talk...
your confidence...
in yourself...
the confidence you say you have in me...
the way you look when your hair's messed up...
the way you look when i say somthing that you expected me to say...
your expression when something you said would happen does happen...
as it usually does...
and when things hurt you...
or if there is something that you dont understand...
it hurts me like thorns within me...
i hate to say good bye...
im looking fr somethin...
somthin i cant find in your eyes...
i dnt know what it is...
i wish i knew...
i love when you say hello...
i wait every moment just to see you...
when i see pictures of you...
im really happy...
when i see it with others...
my heart feels shattered...
i love the way you make me feel better...
and how much it hurts when you never tell me about you...
i love the way you always know what to say...
the way you know everything i ever have to tell you but still listen...
the way you dont change the way you act even though you know...
the way you wake me up in the morning...
i hate how it feels when im angry with you...
and the fact that you dont get that im not actually angry but really really hurt...
i hate the way that i crave for your attention...
but i love the way i feel when you give me the tiniest bit of it...
i feel on top of the world when you do so much as msg me on your own...
can't you see?
ofcourse you can!
you hurt me so bad....
u broke my trust...
i knoe i get angry much too often...
and yes...for the stupidest reasons on the planet...
yes only with you...
but really cant you see????
are you so very blind?
its not you im angry with..its me...that i can never be as perfect as you...
that i feel too small to even stand next to you...
i didnt expect you would make fun of my feelings...
i really didnt...
it hurt so bad to ignore you today...
i really dont expect you to like me...
i would be extremely ashamed to ever do better than you in anything...
coz i want you to be the bestest in the world... :D
i cried myself to sleep last night...
because i realised that it was never care but curiosity that drove you to me...
i just have one fear that makes me do all the silly things that i do...
i regret a bunch of things i say to you...
i lost my trust in many people today...
even so i end up telling you the most stupid stuff in the world...
i tell you i deepest thoughts and feelings...
but the one fear of mine prevents me from telling you this one thing...
but i know it is for the good...
it is this one fear of mine that makes me act as supidly as i do...
that fear is to lose you...
im afraid you wont talk to me ever again...
afraid you'll ignore me, you'll forget me...
thats why im hurt when you dont call or reply to my message..
the reason i was hurt so deeply for such a silly thing...
the reason i wish you never knew what i thought...
what i felt for you...
and i never ever want to ever tell you this ever in my life...
i never want to make you uncomfortable or put you in a tough position...
i never want to ever tell you that you hurt me coz im afraid youll feel bad...
but i never expected you to hurt me the way you did...
i hate my fear but it makes me very insecure...
thats why i never want you to know...
i wish you never knew...