the perfect day

im feeling kinda blue;
this feeling -its not new,
to me nowdays...
i feel on top of the world somtimes
but sometimes its just hard to say.
i hate to say good bye to you
but every day...i have to...
i miss you..
i think of you when im awake
dream of you when im asleep..
its like every thing i do...
has something to do with you..
im scared to look into your eyes..
afraid i wont find what im looking for
i know i wont find it there..
not today not tomorrow..
not ever...
thats what makes me sad sometimes...
but i know i have to go on..
"i dont think so much"...
you always say..
i guess its time for me to be that way...
you make me do the weirdest things
things i should do on my own..i do only coz you say so...
god!!u makin me go crazy...
i wonder if you know...
do u evr wonder how much every word you say affects me?
do you or will you ever know how much you mean to me?
i was doin well...
coz of you..
i swear n now....i dont think anthings changed
but im not doin anything coz you didnt say so..
i wonder why i feel this way...
feel like doin only what you say...
youre the best thing that ever happened to me...
may be not the version i wanted...
but your my personnel mp3;
(lol!)
you are every song i will ever need to hear..
you make me feel better...
you bring me cheer...
even now....remember i started sayin i was feelin blue..
now that im thinkin of you im way better...
you make me happy even when you arent here!
imagine what you do to me every day at school!!!
dude! you make me go crazy
you never think of me in the same way...
but i really dont care cause i as long as know you think of me...ill be okay
you make my day or break it by your presence..by every word you say...
hell i know i shouldnt think of you in this way
but as long as you dont know...who cares!
you run my life...control it..dominate it...
and you dont even know of your own kingdom!
i feel like laughin now....feel so free..
i wish you were here to feel it with me..
i dont just want you to bear my pain
but also share my joys...
i wish i could do the same but i know you dont need me..
but thats okay...
ill keep waitin for the day when youll set me free!
how much a person cares for you depends on how much they need you...
i dont need you to care for me the way i do fr you..
i just need you to need me..
in any way...even as a little sister...
when you need me...that will be the day...
the perfect day...
:)
:D